In the summer of 2018, I spoke to someone I will call 'My guide". I told her I was unlucky in love and wanted to pray and manifest true love. Love I thought was going to come from a cis male.
She gave me a series of things I needed to do to prepare for this task.
Alongside this, I also had to make a lost of things I wanted in my partner. So I went right to work.
So about a year and a half had passed and I still hadn’t found this loved I was looking for. No one, I dated checked off everything on this list, they were always missing KEY components to what I wanted. Where was my dream man!!??
Fast forward a few months to December 2019, again at my chapter meeting, I had to ask her to post something on our website for my committee. This was my chance to try to talk to her.
Mind you since 2012, I have not been able to muster to courage to speak to her, like AT ALL. I always avoided her, turned the other way anything to avoid eye so she wouldn’t ever catch me looking her way. Because I never thought I was attracted to her, she was just a silly “girl crush”
How? How do I ask her casually to do something for me and hopefully spark a conversation?
In my VIRGO logic, because I had to email her these documents to post, I was thinking I need to email her on some casual platform. Guys, I had this woman’s phone number and email on my sorority’s directory (smh). But in my head I was thinking, I will send her a message on Facebook and ask for her email and make conversation and get to know her and see if she is even a wlw (woman-loving-woman) ! I had a plan and it was perfectly executed, so I thought...
Nine days passed before she responded!! Like, damn... By this point, I had already emailed her my documents to post to the website (because of her information I had) so my plan crumbled. Ughhhh
After she finally responded, I had lost my courage and did not try to talk to her much after that.
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